iimperfect-liife

2006-06-19T10:46:00.000+08:00

`我就是那个傻瓜！`

但我感到疲累时，
我是个只要你呼喊我，我仍会飞奔过去的傻瓜。

看到好吃又不错的东西，
尽使肚子饿，但看到你吃东西的模样也感到满足的傻瓜。。。

天气寒冷时尽使感冒了，
鼻涕入水官般流出，
但为了不让你感到冷，我是个会将手套围巾都塞给你的傻瓜。。。

只要是为了你，
就算让我变成傻瓜也无所谓。

如果不变成傻瓜，
是绝对无法去爱一个人的，
今天我还是梦想当个傻瓜。

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2006-06-07T11:53:00.000+08:00

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终于牵到她的小手了，好开心，好开心！很想抱紧她，不要然她走掉，希望时间能停留在每当我和她的时候，因为这一个，一定是最美好的。我爱你，老婆！

剩下不多时间可以看到她了，以为我要进兵了！haix。。进兵后，会有可能看不到她。一定会想念她的！甚至连现在，每分每时，都在挂念着她！haix。。好像现在看到她，牵她的手，紧紧拥抱着她，然后亲她的小嘴，接着对她说声：“我爱你！”

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2006-06-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

`27/05/06`

在27/05/06那星期六晚上，她给我了她的答案。她说：“先try try吧！”到目前为此，还是没有牵到她的手。好想牵着她的手，永远不要放手。因为我爱你！

今天有一点吃醋。因为她跟我说她在看yandao。我有一点生气，但没有因为这样而跟她吵架，我所以会吃醋是因为我爱你！

我想大声对你说：“陈秀娟，我爱你！”

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2006-05-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

`i wanna be ur lover`

刚刚才和她讲完电话，心里好开心。可以在睡觉之前听到她的声音，我的睡肯定很甜。哈哈！但之前，有一点伤心，因为一直在等她的sms。直到最后，我主动msg了她。

好想念她，很想紧紧抱着她，但不懂会不会有这个机会。haix。。我很希望，每一天，能看到她，每一天可以抱着她，每一天可以在睡觉之前听到她的声音，每一天听到她对我说：“i'm thinking of you，我爱你，我想你。”

多两天，多两天。好期待，也好伤心。很怕答案会是一个“不”。haix。。

有一首歌和想唱给她听。曹格-数到五答应我。那首歌里面，记载我想对她说的话。我爱你！

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2006-05-23T15:53:00.000+08:00

`永远不会忘记`

上个星期六,第一次与她和她的朋友,一同去看戏.我坐在她左边,她坐在我右边.永远不会忘记,那天她穿的白色上衣和青色短裤,她好美!

但现在,有可能这是我们的最后一部电影了吧!haix..

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2006-05-23T15:40:00.000+08:00

`我爱你`

我哭了。眼泪不知不觉掉了下来。我好想念她，好想念，好想念。。

在一次，我又浪费她的sms了。对不起，真得很对不起！我很怕，再也不能看到你，再也不能听到你的声音，再也不能和你联络了。真得不能失去你。我爱你！

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2006-05-23T15:22:00.000+08:00

`我等你的答案`

多4天，她说她会给我一个答复4天后。我等。我等她的答复。我祈祷，希望是一个能让我高兴的一个答复。但心里还是知道的，她的答复，我猜一定是个“不”。haix。。

我心里，一直在呼喊她的名字。我猜我已经爱她爱到无法自拔了。为什么在爱情里，我总是找不到真爱呢？为什么我的人生会这么痛苦呢？如果是这样，为何不让我消失在这个地球呢？我已经厌腻这样的悲伤了。我不想再拥有这样的痛苦，这种感觉，真得不好受！

我很怕这星期六她给我的答复。我很希望能永远牵着她的手，永远不要分开。我希望她的答复是“我也爱你”。haix。。

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2006-05-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

`我的心在哭`

那晚我又在PG。。在不自不觉的情况下，我对她表白了。但她却说不知道，这件事太突然了。

我愿意等，等到她那天她接受我，我知道我的心很痛，但我不能做什么，我只能等，一直在等。。

今天我不能专心去做我的工，一直在想着她，每分每秒都在想着她。这种感觉很辛苦，很痛。她说如果有一天我对她的感觉没了，我会怎么办？我说我对她的感觉永远不变，不管怎么样我都会在等她。

真得很怕看到她。怕遇见了她，批次都会尴尬。我的心很不好受。我对她的感觉，一直隐藏在我心里。到现在还是，到将来还是，一直都不变。好想念她，真的好想念她。对不起，我爱你！

我不知道她是否听得到，我的心一直在叫着她的名字。我很怕，我很怕。怕我不能拥有她。我的心在哭，就像黄河，一直流个不停。hai。。

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2006-05-18T16:45:00.000+08:00

`我会不会有一丝机会？`

不能再msg多了。。因为她的bill很高。haix。。都是我的错，害到她的bill这么高，真是对不起。

我心里一直在想，我到底还有没有机会。我很想念她，真得很想念她。昨天又梦见她，梦里她在sms她的朋友，不知道是男或girl（因为不能写汉语拼音，那个“U”需要有特别的两个点在它上面），但我知道我在吃醋。

今天一整天都在等她的msg，终于刚刚她才msg我。我好开心，有她的msg，我就精神多了。哈哈！

好想念她，真的好想念她。

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2006-05-16T15:56:00.000+08:00

`暗示`

昨晚我又在暗示她了，但她却不回答这个暗示，我只能带着伤心和悲痛跟着朋友一起去我朋友的家。到现在，我还是不懂，我到底有没有机会，得到她的心？

昨晚我问了她，问她是否会和一个抽烟的人在一起，她回答说她不知道，接着她就问为什么，好想跟她直接的说，因为我喜欢你。但我却没这么说，只以为我怕，我怕如果回答是个“不”，我不知道我还能开心得了吗？我回答地说我好好奇，只是问问而已。

好想接她放学，但她却说不需要，她可以自己回家。haix。。难道爱一个人是这么的难吗？haix。。

听了一首歌by刘耕宏 - 情画。。一首很好听的歌。有一段句子我挺喜欢的。

“我孤单，我不安，思绪被封住了口，黑夜却还是不罢手。

强颜欢笑背后，在暗淡中摸索，我祈祷，只愿你听得到。

从分开到现在，我过的我在习惯，伤痛却依然在扩散。

时间不听使唤，为回忆上了锁，这段情，我已放不开。”

这首歌值得去听听看！

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2006-05-13T17:23:00.000+08:00

`心在哭`

我终于知道我在想着谁了。难道我已经感受到什么是爱了吗？我的心在哭，我的心真的受伤了！

总觉得她根本不喜欢我，我的感觉在告诉我。但我已经发现到，我已深深地爱上她了。

好伤心，好伤心。我很恨我自己的命运。为什么总是我喜欢的人总不能得到她呢？什么时候我才能得到真爱？我喜欢她，但她不喜欢我。haix。。

距离越来越远了，总有一天我们会变成陌生人。好烦好伤心，很想PG。。

明天就会看到她了，有一点开心也有一点伤心。好像跟她表白，但怕答案却是个“不”。我是个受不了打击的人，我不想再受伤害了。

我绝没有错，这就是爱。没有她的时候，我好伤心，好想念着她。没有她的sms，我会挂念，祈祷她的sms会尽快送到。真的好象和她一起出去，好像和她一起看电影，可是我会有这么一天吗？这肯定没错，这就是爱。haix。。

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2006-05-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

`她，她还是她？`

心好乱，心好烦。感觉有一点不同。我到底该怎么办才好呢？haix。。

什么是爱？是每当你看到她的时候，你的累会变成情醒？每封sms她sent给你，你都会笑？常常和她sms？想每时每刻看到她？想听一听她的声音等等.. 难道这就是爱吗? 好烦好烦.

昨天我又在PG了.这次的感觉有一点不同,味道有一点怪怪的.哈哈!

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2006-05-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

`时间不多了`

06/07/2006就是我进兵的日子了。有一点不像进兵的感觉，觉得在那里没有自由，整天就是被tekan来tekan去的，haix。。

终于book我的basic theory for我的bike lesson了。13/05/06 星期六12：05-13：45，有一点怕，只能希望能pass就可以了。哈哈！

刚刚才和朋友一起PG，第一次忘得这么high。。哈哈！可能这是我最后一次和朋友PG了吧！哈哈！

感觉上有一点烦，不知道几时那个我哥哥介绍我的工才能做，haix。。

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2006-04-27T01:34:00.000+08:00

`没办法`

这个blog还是不能让我用华语字来post！haix..只能看到的是一个一个莫名起锚的字法。haix..真是伤脑精啊！

才刚做忘我的resume就有问题出现了，haix.. 还是不懂得怎么用scanner。怎么scan还是没有出现我要的东西。好烦好烦！

今天有可能去考我bike的license。如果再晚就来不及了，所以得赶紧去考。哈哈！

好困喔！好想去睡觉，但还不能去睡，得去看一看戏，哈哈！

就到此未自吧！哈哈！再见了！

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2006-04-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

`心好乱`

好烦好烦。有一点担心我的未来。是好是坏，我很想知道。

不知道我能实现我的梦想吗？拥有一辆跑车，一间豪华的房子，赚很多很多的钱等等。。。haix...真希望我有一个很好的未来。

不多久，有可能我会辞掉popular的工作，换去一个更多薪水的工。但还是有一点依依不舍。haix..好烦好烦。

忘了怎么做resume了。哈哈！但所知道的是resume很麻烦。哈哈！

快要进兵了。好sian。很想考车但怕考不到，又怕没钱考。haix..真的是好恨我自己。haix..

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2006-04-21T03:04:00.000+08:00

`i shud g0 de c0rrect way`

g0t news abt dis j0b tt related t0 my dipl0ma frm my elder br0ther.. he used t0 wrk dere.. pay is kind 0f gd.. may earn $2000+ in 0ne mth.. w0rth c0nsidering..

dis j0b have 3 shift.. 7am - 3pm, 3pm - 11pm, 11pm - 7am.. if i'm been selected.. i'll sure take 11pm - 7am.. c0s diff shift g0t diff additi0n pay.. frm 11pm - 7am is de m0st extra pay.. $12 per hr.. but haix.. dun0 will dey recruit me..? haix.. but s0mehw cant leave p0pular al0ne.. haix.. vex..

h0pefully t0dae cn make a call t0 dem.. n h0pefully i cn be selected.. haa.. i h0pe i cn earn m0re m0ney.. s0 as t0 give my parent n my future wife a gd life.. haa..

but s0mehw kind 0f scare if taken up dis j0b.. scare i'm unable t0 c0pe wif.. c0s f0rg0tten everyth tt i had learn.. l0l.. n 0s0.. i'm scare 0f de interview if i'm been selected.. haix..

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2006-04-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

`feeling sick`

an interesting matter happened in my wrk place 0n m0n.. caught 2 pers0ns stealing maple st0ry card in de cctv..

0f c0s.. p0lice came.. investigate de crime.. me been questi0ned by de p0lice 0fficers f0r ard 1 h0ur plus.. c0s i saw them in de sh0p.. but at first n0t c0nfirm is them.. until when i disc0ver that de maple cards s0meh0w seem missing.. den i rushed int0 de 0ffice n l00k at de cctv.. den realise that dey r de 0ne tt 0pen de cabinet d00r.. haix.. l0st 33 maple st0ry cards.. fuck de hell 0f dem man..

but de case haven s0lve.. t0dae received a letter frm de tanglin p0lice stn.. t0t i kena g0t case.. scare de hell 0f me.. l0lx.. but aft i read de letter.. was jus telling me that de matter will be further l00k int0 it.. if ani inf0rmati0n dey receive 0r i receive den will keep in c0ntact.. l0lx..

s0me h0w kind 0f sian t0 bl0g.. l0lx.. 0s0 dun0 wad t0 bl0g lately.. alway bl0g all th0se WABA stuff.. l0lx..

t0t t0dae cn g0 cut hair.. but w0ke up late.. s0 nv intend t0 g0.. feel lyk cutting hair.. haix..

getting vex.. haix.. vex life.. l0lx..

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2006-04-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

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slpt quite l0ng.. w0ke up ard 4pm.. have my lunch.. den catch s0me sh0ws 0n tv..

evening time went plae lan wif dey all.. w0n de 2nd match but l0st 0n de 1st n 3rd.. sianx..

tml still nd t0 wrk.. sure bz.. haix..

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2006-04-14T14:39:00.000+08:00

`b0ring`

t0t t0dae cn g0 0ut.. but in de end nv.. haix.. s0 b0ring.. nth t0 d0.. raining de wh0le m0rning n aftnn.. t0dae is n0t a gd fri f0r me.. haix.. b0ring..

still finding present f0r aivy.. but dun0 wad t0 buy f0r her.. s0me0ne wun hav de time t0 g0 check it 0ut wif me.. haix.. it's a br0ken pr0mise.. haix..

s0 b0ring s0 b0ring.. wad cn i d0..? yawnzZ..

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2006-04-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

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dinner was 2 sticks 0f vicer0y.. l0lx.. kind 0f hate tt kind 0f smell.. maybe it's time f0r me t0 quit sm0king..

wasnt feeling c0mf0rtable aft de puff.. felt lyk v0mitting.. maybe frm wad my fren s0und true.. i dun fit t0 be a sm0ker.. hmmm.. maybe i'm g0nna quit..

b0ught 0ne pack 0f vicer0y.. 0ni sm0ke 3 sticks.. den de rest gave t0 wayliang.. 0mg.. i wanna quit.. still have tt kind 0f smell 0n my t0ngue.. haix..

aivy bdae c0ming s00n.. dun0 wad t0 buy f0r her.. ani suggesti0n..? feel lyk buying her 0ne shirt.. but dun0 wad her size n wad type she wan.. a failure f0r been her g0d br0ther.. haix..

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2006-04-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

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haha.. received my belated bdae present frm my bel0ved gan mei mei dis few weeks.. l0lx.. was t0tally falling in l0ve wif de presents dey gave me.. t0tally t0uched.. thanks.. ^^

last weeks.. received a t-shirt frm shelly.. reali tr0ubled her when she passing de present t0 me.. she had t0 g0 all de way t0 t0a pay0h jus t0 pass me de present.. aft tt went back hm.. haix.. love her present l0ts.. she b0ught f0r me a t-shirt.. black in c0l0ur.. wif printing in fr0nt.. nice.. veri nice w0r.. haa.. thanks shelly.. i l0ve it l0ts.. ^^

nxt was de present i received frm aviy.. she b0ught me a wallet.. jus in de nd 0f time.. my wallet 0pened a big h0le.. l0lx.. thanks f0r her.. i save my m0ney 0n buying a new wallet.. thanks aivy.. de wallet 0s0 veri nice w0r.. black in c0l0ur t00.. leather de.. wah.. haa.. l0ve it l0ts.. thanks aviy.. ^^

t0dae went dwn cc.. wrking f0r s0 mani dae.. finally went dwn cc plae ball.. but was t0tally disapp0inted wif my skill.. cn sae is w0rst den a newbie.. haix.. i h0pe i cn impr0ve.. s0 tt i wun bec0me a burden f0r my team mates..

nwadae was t0tally disapp0inted in myself.. wadeva th i did.. wasnt any better.. haix.. indeed.. i must admit.. i'm a failure.. a failure since i was b0rn.. neither m i gd in basketball n0r lan game.. even in my studies, my wrk, my l00ks, my daily life, etc.. i'm a failure t00.. haix.. reali damn hate myself.. y was i been b0rn..? haix.. m i n0t gd in every th..? wad shall i d0 den..? haix..

i wish f0r my life t0 be better.. t0 be c0l0urful.. but i 0was living in a black grey n white envir0nment.. haix.. i hate my life.. 0ni cn envy 0thers.. haix..

when cn my luck change..? i wanna change my life.. if cn.. i wan it rite nw.. haix..

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2006-04-06T18:45:00.000+08:00

`i'm a failure`

i'm w0rry abt my future.. hw will my future lyk..? haix.. will i be a p00r guy..? will i be single..? will i be j0bless..? will my j0b 0ni all0w me t0 get less than $1200 salary..? will i have a car..? etc.. etc.. haix.. s0 mani th t0 w0rry abt.. i dun wish t0 gr0w up.. haix..

i wanna try t0 f0rget.. but i cant bring myself t0 d0 tt.. wheneva i ting 0f tt.. i felt depress.. i felt tt i cudnt c0ntr0l my feeling.. haix..

didnt g0 BBDC t0dae.. c0s frm wad my fren sae ytd.. nd at least $100 t0 be ready t0 get ur license.. haix..

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2006-04-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

`i'm c0nfuse`

i'm t0tally c0nfuse.. t0tally.. dun0 whether t0dae wanna g0 dwn BBDC t0 take de first step t0 m0i bike license.. haix..

i'm afraid tt i wun be able t0 get de license.. i'm afraid tt i'm lazy t0 take up tt license.. n 0s0.. i'm afraid t0 g0 al0ne.. haix..

t0tally c0nfuse.. t0tally scare.. finally i underst00d tt.. de inner part 0f me.. i'm jus a c0ward.. haix..

i h0pe f0r de license.. but when cn i fulfill it..? haix..

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2006-04-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

`celebrati0n`

first destinati0n was lan.. plae lan f0r a while wif dem.. den aft tt went f0r k.. sang till 4am.. c0mpletely 0ut 0f v0ice.. l0lx.. but half way thru de singing.. wasnt n0e tt dey b0ught a cake f0r m0i.. l0lx.. thanks all m0i br0s.. but eventually de cake wasnt meant t0 be eaten.. it was meant f0r m0i face.. l0lx..

we went paradiz centre de k b0x.. inside de k b0x.. guess we r de 0ne grp tt sing s0 high.. s0 crazy.. well.. we sh0ut instead 0f singing.. l0lx..

den aft tt went hm straight.. m0rning still nd t0 wrk.. haix.. wad a dae.. l0lx..

t0tally shack 0ut while wrking.. n0t enuff slp.. reached wrk ard 3pm.. asked f0r half dae wrk..

nxt dae m0rning still nd t0 wrk earli.. required t0 reach wrk place ard 7:40am.. s0 earli.. 0mg..

wasnt having enuff slpt last nite.. started t0 fall aslp ard 4am plus.. w0ke up ard 6:30am.. thanks t0 m0i la0 jie gave m0i m0rning call.. bc0s 0f tt.. i'm lucky tt i reached m0i wrk place 0n time.. phew..

st0ck take started 8am plus.. left 0ni m0i n s0me 0f de staff.. m0i supervisi0r went hm.. c0s she's sick.. 0mg.. c0mpletely damn stress 0ut.. catch a sh0rt nap during m0i break time.. den c0ntinue wif de rest 0f de st0ck take..

haix.. tml stil nd t0 rearrange de rest 0f de st0ck.. hu cn help m0i..? i'm t0tally stress 0ut.. haix..

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2006-04-01T03:58:00.000+08:00

`i'm 0ne yr 0lder`

yes.. t0dae is m0i bdae.. seem funny t0 every 0ne.. indeed.. it fall 0n de first 0f april.. which in 0ther w0rds.. april f00l dae..

guess i've been a f00l since de dae i was b0rn.. l0lx..

went dwn parklane aft wrk t0 meet m0i br0s n frens at de lan sh0p.. de first sight dey saw m0i.. nevertheless.. traditi0nal stuff.. a bdae bash.. was n0t jus 0ne bash.. was n0t jus 20 bashes.. but is l0ts n l0ts 0f bashes.. 0mg.. hurt m0re instead 0f enj0y m0re.. l0lx.. been dere till 2am.. den each 0f us headed 0ff t0 each 0ther h0me..

tml maybe celebrating m0i bdae at k b0x.. but bef0re tt maybe catching s0me sh0ws.. well.. m0stly is m0i treat.. haa.. hmmm.. 1.. 2.. 3.. ...... 8 0r 9 ppls g0ing ba.. 0mg.. tt will be a t0tally 0f $100 plus ba.. haix.. g0nna br0ke dis time.. l0lx..

s0mehw dun feel lyk g0ing 0ut.. c0s s0me 0f m0i br0s dey dun have much m0ney.. in 0rder t0 celebrate m0i bdae at k b0x.. dey nd t0 sell away their used hp.. haix.. kind 0f zi bei (dun0 hw t0 sae in eng) haix.. if reali any 0f m0i frens 0r br0s dun hav much m0ney.. i rather ch00se n0t t0 celebrate m0i bdae.. 0r n0t t0 g0 0ut.. rather stay at pp 0r g0 ride bicycle wif minimum sum 0f m0ney spent.. it's 0k eventh0ugh it's 0ne yr 0ne time.. i will be glad.. reali..

well.. de veri first present i receive fr0m is m0i ex yv0nne.. she b0ught f0r m0i a mickey m0use cup.. cute n nice.. blue in c0l0ur.. haa.. lurve it l0ts.. thanks.. den sec0nd present i g0t was fr0m m0i dad.. he gave m0i an ang ba0.. 0f c0s dere m0ney inside.. but haa.. haven g0 c0unt yet.. l0lx.. thanks dad.. haix.. 0ur family als0 n0t s0 rich.. reali zi bei tt m0i dad still gave m0i ang ba0.. haix.. i must save.. save n earn m0ney f0r m0i parent..

0ne last th.. thanks all 0f m0i br0s n frens f0r helping m0i celebrate m0i bdae.. thanks every0ne.. i reali appreciate it.. thanks.. thanks 0nce again..

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2006-03-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

``

still finding ppl t0 ask dem 0ut 0n m0i bdae.. h0pefully every th g0es well..

3 m0re daes t0 g0.. haix.. m i feeling happi 0r feeling sad..? haix.. dun0.. haix..

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2006-03-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

`c0unt dwn`

bdae c0ming.. heard frm m0i frens.. dey wanna help m0i celebrate at k b0x.. hmm.. ting is bashing m0i up at k b0x ba.. haa.. but w0ndering whether dey c0nfirm g0ing an0t.. haa..

st0ck take c0ming.. is nxt dae aft m0i bdae.. sianx.. cant celebrate till nxt dae.. haix.. every yr de same.. st0ck take fall 0n m0re 0r less de same dae s m0i bdae.. haix.. suay..

feel lyk wrking de technican j0b.. pay kind 0f gd.. $1500 per m0nth include cpf.. wrk frm m0n t0 fri.. 9am - 6pm.. dun0 wad t0 d0 at dere.. heard is jus s0ldering nia.. kind 0f c0nfuse nw.. haix..

b0ught a narut0 de m0vie dvd.. g0nna watch tml.. wed n0t wrking.. but fri mus wrk.. haix..

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2006-03-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

``

went dwn t0 m0i wrk place dis m0rning.. explain sth abt de st0ck t0 m0i c0lleague.. explain jus f0r a while den return back t0 pp..

met pc at de chicken rice st0re.. ate m0i lunch den we pr0ceed t0 bugis..

b0ught a braclet (dun0 issit lyk tt spell) f0r m0i ex stead yv0nne.. dun0 when will be passing it t0 her.. haa..

den went back t0 pp again t0 meet de rest 0f m0i frens den we went dwn plae lan..

plae 3 rd.. l0lx.. 1st rd we w0n.. but aft tt we kept l0sing.. plae kind 0f frustrated.. dun0 hw t0 plae.. g0t kill multi times.. sianx..

den plae till 11pm plus.. den went back hm le..

t0dae b0rr0w hp frm wayliang.. thanks.. den put 0ne nice pic inside tt hp.. haa.. lurve it l0ts.. l0lx.. but dis pic.. is jus deciving m0iself nia.. haix..

tml still g0t wrk.. 0ne 0f de supervisi0r will be wrking her last dae at cd rama tml.. still deciding whether wanna take up de j0b tt m0i fren intr0 m0i de.. haix.. vex men.. haix..

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2006-03-25T02:12:00.000+08:00

`wad shall i d0..?`

dere's dis j0b.. rec0mmended by m0i fren.. still deciding whether wanna take up dis j0b.. but meanwhile.. unable t0 give up dis currently j0b 0f m0i.. haix.. headache damn headache..

kind 0f happy t0 wrk in p0pular/cd rama.. eventh0ugh it's t0ugh.. but still at least enj0y much.. lyk th0se c0lleagues dere.. haix.. it's hard t0 make a decisi0n.. haix.. which way shall i ch00se..? haix..

i nd s0me0ne ans.. i nd s0me0ne t0 guide m0i al0ng de way.. but whr is tt s0me0ne..? haix..

headache headache headache......

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2006-03-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

`last dae using m0i lap t0p`

tml finally 0ff.. m0st likely g0ing swimming at jur0ng east swimming c0mplex.. but will be g0ing ard 3 0r 4pm plus.. at tt h0ur.. whr g0t sun..? l0lx.. i nd t0 get dark.. haa..

quarrel wif 0ne cust0mer during wrk.. he damn fucking unreas0nable.. he crash de wrapper yet still wanna exchange f0r him.. it's 0k we make a exchange wif him.. but de th is tt de wrapper is been crashed until lyk r0jak den yet expect us t0 make an exchange..? wtf.. quarrel damn l0ud wif de cust0mer.. nearly fight.. haa.. but in de end he walked away.. we nealy called de p0lice.. haa.. but i'm scare i kena c0mplain.. but tt's n0t de main th.. i'm scare m0i c0lleague will get inv0lve in tt matter.. haix..

have an urge tt i wanna sm0ke.. felt s0 breatheless (dun0 issit lyk tt spell.. cn ani 0ne c0rrect m0i..? hee..) try t0 bear wif it.. haix.. still feeling breatheless nw.. haix.. i reali nd it.. jus 0ne stick.. i ting is enuff f0r m0i.. haix..

t0dae last dae using m0i lapt0p le.. tml g0nna return t0 sk0l.. s0 envy m0i fren.. he g0t a lapt0p f0r free frm sk0l.. wtf.. s0 bias sia.. haix.. tml 0nward will be using m0i c0m le.. haix.. stime sp0ilt stime nv.. sia0 sia0 0ne.. haix..

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2006-03-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

`helpless`

wrk full t0dae.. alm0st exhausted.. sun burn getting w0rst.. finally felt de pain 0n m0i back.. have dis feeling s if de heat is evap0rating 0ut frm m0i bdy..

damn shack t0dae.. unable t0 manage m0i wrk wif full c0ncentrati0n.. t0tally felt s0 helpless.. haix.. i'm suffering frm t00 much stress i guess.. haix.. maybe i nd t0 get de enc0uragement frm s0me0ne t0 have m0i c0ncentrati0n back.. 0r else.. i'm c0mpletely helpless.. haix..

kind 0f depress t0dae.. when will it be g0ne..? haix..

*`*the w0rld 0f mine will be inc0mplete with0ut y0u by my side*`*

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2006-03-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

`sent0sa`

ever since m0i dad s0ld away 0ur h0me used car.. i've nv step int0 sent0sa again.. but t0dae went wif m0i br0s.. cl, pc, rq, bk n wayliang.. went in dere by shuttle bus.. everyth have changed.. n0t much diff frm th0se t0urists dere.. l0lx..

we left pp ard 12pm plus.. reached dere ard 1am plus.. been dere f0r ard 4 0r 5 h0urs ba.. n0t quite sure..

0ur first n last destinati0n was at sil0s0 beach.. went swimming at de sea f0r a while.. den went build m0i 0wn sand castle (0r i can sae a alien..?) t00k pic 0f tt alien 0f m0i using bk hp.. but havent get de pic frm him yet.. den wayliang digged a damn deep h0le.. ting used t0 trap ppl while dey were walking ba.. l0lx..

den went sun tan at dere.. ting get sun burn 0n m0i sh0ulder n m0i back.. ting m0i fr0nt t00.. red n pain.. l0lx..

ard 6 0r 7 plus.. we headed 0ur way h0me.. waited f0r quite l0ng t0 have 0ur bath.. c0s de queue was l0ng.. l0lx..

reached pp.. cl n m0i went hm while de rest 0f dem while slacking ard pp..

sent0sa indeed is a interesting place.. h0ping i cn g0 again.. but dis time h0ping cn g0 t0gether wif de 0ne*..? haa.. hu..? l0lx..

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2006-03-17T12:06:00.000+08:00

`b0ring`

slack at v0id deck till 3am plus.. w0ke up ard 10am plus.. s0re thr0at slightly rec0ver.. but still making m0i c0ugh n c0ugh.. ytd was damn xin ku.. sm0ke a few puff will start m0i c0ughing.. haix..

flu n s0re thr0at.. every twice a m0nth get sick.. m i tt suay..?

sat dey g0ing sent0sa.. hu cn i ask..? haix..

m0i bdae cuming s00n.. haix.. jus simply hate it.. c0s every yr.. unable t0 celebrate.. be wif de 0ne i lurve.. haix.. SUCK..

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2006-03-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

``

ytd had a quarrel wif de wareh0use deliver man.. was bc0s helping 0ne 0f de aunties in de st0re.. she was kena sc0lded by tt deliver man.. he sae t0 her tt her m0ther nv tell her hw t0 t0k ar.. t0k macham lyk shit.. den i kind 0f angry l0r.. c0s he sc0lded her m0ther wad.. hu lyk t0 hear her m0ther kena sc0ld.. den i skip m0i dinner... wait f0r tt guy c0me.. den quarrel wif him l0r.. kind 0f b0 lia0 rite..? haa..

t0dae kind 0f sick.. ytd 0readi have s0re thr0at aft eating tt chicken rice.. den nw g0t flu n s0re thr0at.. haix.. damn suay..

tml dun0 wanna g0 wrk an0t.. feel kind 0f tired.. haix..

haix.. i hate t0 be sick.. c0s dere's n0 0ne t0 take care 0f m0i.. haix.. haix.. haix..

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2006-03-14T00:05:00.001+08:00

``

same r0utine again.. wrk wrk n m0re wrk.. t0dae st0cks kind 0 few.. reached hm kind 0f earli.. kind 0f slpy in de m0rning while wrking..

m00d was d0wn.. haix..

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2006-03-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

``

same r0utine again.. wrk wrk n m0re wrk.. t0dae st0cks kind 0 few.. reached hm kind 0f earli.. kind 0f slpy in de m0rning while wrking..

m00d was d0wn.. haix..

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2006-03-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

`IT fair`

went IT fair at suntec exhibiti0n hall t0dae.. ppl n ppl n ppl.. cr0wds every whr.. was walking ard de hall aimlessly.. searching f0r mp3, hp, blah blah blah.. den was queuing f0r dis free creative ear piece f0r 1 hr.. l0lx.. but nd t0 attend dis presentati0n 0f their new X-Fi CMSS s0und chip card den was able t0 receive tt free gift.. l0lx.. but was kind 0f fun while queuing up.. making fun 0f dis bangladesh (n0t sure whether it spell lyk dis), dey was cutting tt damn queue.. den keep calling dem names.. haa..

leave tt hall ard 8pm plus.. den acc0mpany ck t0 l00k f0r his sh0e.. went nike t0 purchase his nike dunk.. g0t 15% 0ffer wif de help 0f m0i fren..

went back hm straight.. n0t l0ng aft m0i dinner.. rq called m0i.. ask m0i c0me dwn n help him purchase cigarette f0r him.. s0 went dwn met him.. slack ard at dwnstair f0r a while den went hm straight while dey all went t0 have their dinner at de c0ffee sh0p..

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2006-03-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

`c0nfuse`

feeling was str0ng indeed.. haix.. kind 0f c0nfuse.. n0 bdy n0e..

play d0ta t0dae.. s0rt 0f quarrel wif m0i fren.. but in de end was a happi ending.. l0lx..

was wif m0i frens jus nw.. nw at hm.. s00n g0nna meet dem in air c0n r00m.. 0mg.. h0pe everyth will g0 fine..

sianx.. haix.. tml h0pe cn g0 IT fair.. asking m0i fren g0.. dun0 will m0i fren free tml..?

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2006-03-10T02:23:00.000+08:00

`d0wn d0wn... d0wn`

have n0t been 0nlining dis few daes... have been wrking full c0ntin0usly... m0n t0 thurs... wun be wrking 0n t0dae (which mean fri since it's 0ver 12 midnite)... finally cleared finished de pr0m0ti0n st0cks le... pr0m0ti0n start 0n t0dae... every bdy feel free t0 g0 dwn take a l00k... hee... ^^

m00d have been g0ing dwn n dwn n even dwn dis few daes.. w0ndering wad is tt th tt b0thering m0i.. haix.. mind keeps 0n tinging n tinging.. sianx..

t0dae intend t0 g0 cut m0i hair.. g0ing army s00n le.. yet still g0 cut m0i stupid hair.. g0tta be stupid.. yeah.. i am stupid.. -.-

came back hm ard 1am plus.. aft wrk.. met rq n pc.. slacking n slacking.. w0ndering ani0ne will be acc0mpany f0r hair cut t0dae..? hmm..

kind 0f hate m0i l00ks.. l0lx.. chin is getting l0nger n l0nger.. haix.. fuck up chin..

ytd (which mean thurs) dere's event g0ing 0n at t0a pay0h.. cheer leading c0mpetiti0n.. saw pp cheer leading club.. haa.. but nv g0t de chance t0 c it clearly.. t00 cr0wded.. n i'm t00 sh0rt..

back is getting kind 0f pain.. haix.. w0rry i may have back pr0blem.. especially de upper rite part 0f m0i back.. near t0 sh0ulder.. i'm getting 0ld.. haix..

g0t t0 learn a new w0rd 0n de dae bef0re ytd.. c0ntradicting.. haa.. n0t sure whether it's spell c0rrectly.. l0lx..

ting g0tta st0p le.. 0r else ppl will c0mplain tt i at here making a nusiance.. haa..

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2006-03-05T13:47:00.000+08:00

`hapi bdae mum`

s0 b0ring at hm... feel lyk g0ing 0ut... but afraid t0 waste m0ney... haix... b0ring b0ring b0ring...

hapi bdae mum... ^^

feel lyk watching underw0rld... ani0ne interested...?

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2006-03-05T04:06:00.000+08:00

``

kind 0f m00dy t0dae... maybe is bc0s fail t0 acc0mplish certain th... haix

went suntec de carrer exhibiti0n al0ne... g0t t0 n0e c ertain type 0f j0bs n sk0l n etc... kind 0f c0nfuse n w0rry abt m0i future... haix... h0pe i cn be still y0ung...

went plae p00l during nite time... plae till alm0st 2am plus... den slack at dwnstair till jus nw... trying 0ut m0i lappy whether cn use internet... last time did try... but fail... h0pefully it cn be use...

g0nna br0ke s00n... sh0rtage 0f m0ney currently... haix... g0tta wrk m0re... f0rce m0iself t0 wrk... haix

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2006-03-02T00:47:00.000+08:00

`g00d bye`

tues n wed was m0i last 0uting wif m0i classmate c0s we all wun be cuming t0 sk0l anim0re... except f0r 0ur graduation nite... haix... kind 0f miss dem...

t0dae which mean wed... went eat buffect at pariss international restuarant at marina square... l0lx... dun0 hw t0 spell... den aft tt went plae lan... plae cs... plae till half way... m0i m0ti0n sickness start... kind 0f feel giddy... feel lyk v0miting... sianx... den aft tt t00k cab back pp... den met rq n pc... all change hp lia0... rich guys sia... l0lx...

lata maybe g0ing dwn meet dem... nw rushing t0 hang in de rep0rt t0 m0i fren... tml still nd t0 wrk... sianx... *yawnz*

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2006-03-01T18:02:00.000+08:00

``

ytd was moi last paper... ting gonna flunk again... haix... damn hard... damn hard... underestimated... well... everyone sae it is hard... haix... dun0 hw cn i pass... haix

went celebration aft moi exam... n yet eventually i hav de m00d t0 celebrate...? 0mg... went eat yuki yaki at cineleisure... waste l0ts 0f f00ds... haa... den went party w0rld... sang till 3am... den slack at de mac beside far east... waited f0r 0ur first bus... den reached hm ard 6:30am...

w0ke up in de aftnn... den brush teeth le den rush t0 d0 m0i rep0rts... did till nw... dun0 lata g0t g0 0ut an0t... c0s s0me 0f m0i frens dey dun wan g0... dun wan waste m0ney le c0s 0f ytd... den t0dae an0ther bunch ask us 0ut... still deciding...

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2006-02-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

``

mem0ries recalled back 0n fri aftnn... met jess n passed her de valentine gift... h0pefully she lyk it... b0th 0f us was walking ard 0rchard aimlessly... catching 0ur veri first lunch t0gether aft we hav separated... everyth was s0 diff... perhap is bc0s we n0t n0 l0nger bel0ng t0 each 0ther... b0th 0f us was lyk t0tally stranger... t0king was less... dis time... i 0ni hav de chance t0 send her t0 her bl0ck... n0t lyk last time... use t0 send her t0 her d00r step... wif her jus f0r tt few h0ur... but at least... i'm able t0 c her 0n tt dae... kind 0f thankful le...

went dwn west mall t0dae... t0 revise f0r dcis past yr paper... but n0t f0r l0ng... den went dwn pp plae basketball... plae till damn upset... m0i kind 0f lyk bring burden t0 m0i team mate... keep 0n missing ball... haix...

tml cc hav 3 0n 3 c0mpetiti0n... m0i frens dey all will be taking part in tt... h0pe dey cud win... jia y0u... h0pe tml cn g0 dwn supp0rt dem...

wheneva feeling l0w 0r stress... will s0mehw ting 0f her... maybe she de 0ne tt cn help m0i c0ld dwn... make m0i life better...?

- purple = her -

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2006-02-24T12:21:00.000+08:00

``

l0st m0i lighter aft having de first cigarette... haix.. dun0 hw cum will suddenly disappear... tt's de lighter i b0ught it frm malaysia... but de m0st impt th t0 m0i f0r tt lighter is tt IT IS PURPLE C0L0UR DE... haix... fuck... damn suay... haix...

ytd was playing p0lice n theives... haa... real life de w0r... n0t kid playing tt kind 0ne l0r... was hanging ard d0wnstair... den saw p0lice car dr0ve by... den quickly run... den n0t l0ng ag0... saw an0ther p0lice car... den ran again... fun but scare sia... haa...

slpt at 4am plus... neber went sk0l t0dae... haix... w0rry abt m0i exam.. haix...

nw den i n0e g0vernment hav set a new law... bel0w 17 yr 0ld children r n0t t0 stay aft 11pm... 0mg.. tt t00 hard...

later meeting jessica... scare c her le... i will lyk cant c0ntr0l... haix...

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2006-02-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

`silly b0i`

reali damn shack... wrk full t0dae... clear quite al0t 0f st0cks le.. but yet... st0cks jus c0me n c0me... jus lyk fl0wing water... 0mg... g0tta faint s00n...

ate m0i dinner... kind 0f sh0ck... aft eating den i realised tt i 0ni t00k 10 mins 0f eating... l0lx... tt was fast... haa...

damn fucking suay sia... wanna pulled 0ut m0i bed den in de end m0i wh0le bed fall apart... fucking hell... den 0wn self fix it back... fuck sia... c0m 0s0 wanna sp0ilt sp0ilt lia0... haix... fucking hell de suay... haix...

- silly b0i dyed his hair t0 the c0l0ur tt de gurl lyks - purple -

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2006-02-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

`exhausted`

think g0nna exhaust m0iself s00n... hab been wrking earli 0n ytd n t0dae... will be wrking earli t00 0n dis few dae... 0ni fri will be a 0ff dae f0r m0i i supp0se... t00 mani st0cks le... haven c0mplete... haix... stress 0ut... nw headache lia0... sianx...

t0dae damn busy... skipped m0i lunch time jus f0r tt return st0cks... mus be c0mpleted bef0re evening... luckily able t0 c0mplete... 0r else m0i lunch time will g0ne t0 waste le... haa...

ytd went hm... kena sc0lded by m0i br0... blame m0i f0r making m0i c0m spoilt... den sh0ut back wid him... c0s t0tally damn shack ytd... nv hab enuff slp... well... i did made spoilt de c0m but n0t partially m0i fault wad... every0ne hab t0 be blame wad... haix...

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2006-02-19T08:43:00.000+08:00

``

plae lan... plae ball... went nite cycling till dis m0rning... w0ndering m i able t0 g0 wrk dis m0rning...? kind 0f slpy rite nw... msg m0i supervisi0r... asking whether cn take 0ff t0dae...? haix...

kind 0f find m0iself...
n0t gd in studying...
n0t gd at playing lan...
n0t gd at playing basketball...
n0t gd in l00ks...
n0t gd in size...
n0t gd in height...
n0t gd in t0king...
n0t gd in having a gurl n stay l0ng...
n0t gd in etc etc...
well... indeed nth i'm reali gd in... asking m0iself... is dere sth i d0 gd in it...? slping...? perhap... haix...

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2006-02-18T12:34:00.000+08:00

`haix`

t00k m0i first exam paper MSD ytd... c0mpletely flunk i supp0sed... haix... aft qns 1... de rest 0f de qns i left wid qns mark... haix... t0tally sp0ilt m0i m00d 0n tt dae... mum called m0i al0t 0f times... but i didnt ans... c0s d0esnt even wanna g0 back hm... haix... but in de end... went hm t0 hav steam b0at...

ting abt her* when feeling sad... maybe she* cn cheer m0i up?

went plae bball... jus wanna frustrate it 0ut...

thanks f0r all 0f m0i frens... dey brightern up m0i dae... nevertheless... dey j0ke abt m0i... l0lx...

went nite cycling wid m0i fren... cycling till esplanade... till lau pa sat dere ate 0ur supper... went hm straight aft tt...

lata g0ing plae lan... sure will plae till frustrate... l0lx... ani 0ne wanna j0in? hee... ^^

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2006-02-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

`determinati0n`

i planned... maybe aft graduate... keep 0n wrking... earn m0re m0ney... den get a license... but dun0 will i be able t0 make it an0t... haix... wadeva th i planned... wun c0me true... sianx...

evening aft dinner... went dwn cc plae ball... played jus f0r a while den went teach arika maths... taught till 10pm plus... den went hm...

w0ndering when cn pass her* de gift...? when cn c her* again...? wad m i g0nna d0 when i c her*...? will dere be silent in between us...? will m0i heart beat fast...? haix... s0 damn c0nfuse... wanted s0 much t0 c her* again... but den... damn scare... fucking scare... haix...

i wanna change... i wanna save m0ney... haix... everytime sae these th... in de end it's jus a empty w0rds... haix...

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2006-02-15T15:35:00.000+08:00

`it's jus a wish`

t0t will be meeting her* ytd... but in de end... she* hav remedial... thus wun be meeting her*.... haix... haix... th wun be g0ing fine 0n m0i... i shud knew it...

still de same... l0nely valentine dae... nth diff dis yr... haix

went plae lan wid m0i frens... nth t0 d0... hiding inside lan sh0p is much m0re better den seeing c0uple all ard de street which make m0i depress...

t0t 0f g0ing her* hse tt area wait f0r her* t0 c0me back den pass her* sth... but in de end nv... haix...

t0tally m00dless...

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2006-02-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

`thanks g0d`

was t0tally glad... f0und m0i key 0nce reached m0i sk0l... saw it 0n m0i desk... thanks g0d thanks g0d... haa...

received a msg tt reali brightern up m0i dae... was her* msg... t0tally damn happi... hee... meeting her* tml... 0mg... i'm nerv0us... i'm excited... h0ping tml will be a great dae f0r b0th 0f us... thanks g0d... u reali ans m0i prayer... hee...

back still pain... tt sun burn... making m0i pain everywhr... get h0t easily... 0mg... g0nna bec0me fire man... -.-

hungry nw...

happi valentine dae every0ne... ^^

pictures --->

0mg... cl g0tta get crazy 0ver it... guess he wun be washing his hand f0r yrs... haa...

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2006-02-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

`suay dae`

thurs went party w0rld aft 0ur pr0ject exhibiti0n... first time went sang k wid m0i sk0l mate... t0tally embarrassed m0i self... sang till damn sux... haa...

t00k de last bus went hm... luckily m0i...

fri was 0ur last exhibiti0n... wasnt t00 sm00th... 0ur r0b0t s0me0ut n0t functi0ning pr0perly... t0tally ruin... haix...

dad came t0 c m0i getting prize f0r 0ur pr0ject... well... kind 0f feel unc0mf0rtable taking tt cert... c0s it wasnt meant it f0r m0i... i didnt c0ntributed much t0 it... haix.... realli a let dwn f0r m0i grp members... realli beri sry...

rushed t0 wrk aft packing 0ur stuff... ting i left m0i key in sk0l... fuck... damn fucking angry... t0gether wid de key... dere's a key chain i made it 0n m0i 0wn... f0r her* de... but nw.. de key is g0ne... dun0 cn get it back an0t... fucking hell... fucking suay tt fucking dae... argh... hate m0i self f0r been s0 fucking careless...

c0mpletely n0 m00d in wrking... haix... praying hard m0n cn get it back... haix... pls g0d... pls...?

f0rg0t wad i did 0n sat... 0h ya... p00l de wh0le dae... aftnn n nite time... damn fucking piss 0ff when playing p00l.. skill is frm bad t0 w0rst... haix...

was tinging damn hard f0r m0i self... wanna change m0i self... dun wanna stick t0 a inmature 19 yr 0ld guy... haix... when cn i get mature...? haix... when cn i be s0me0ne tt s0 gd l00king...? s0me0ne tt s0 clever s0 smart...? s0me0ne tt is a genius in everyth...? haix... i hate m0i self...

went swimming dis m0rning... saw m0i bdy... c0mpletely redish... 0mg... g0t sun burn i supp0se... de pain is dere rite nw... h0ping tml able t0 find back m0i key... h0ping g0d will help m0i... i dun wan t0 l0se m0i tt key n t0gether wid de key chain... pls...?

taught arika maths at mac... m0i teaching sux... making her n rq felt s0 sleepy... haa.... but 0s0 gd la... g0t dis special p0wer t0 make ppl slp... haa....

valentine dae cuming s00n le... 2 m0re dae... haix... i will be al0ne... haix... i wish i cud g0 0ut wid her* 0n tt dae... but haix... it's jus a wish tt cudnt cum thru... b0ught f0r her* 2 th... but maybe cn 0ni give her* de sec0nd gift... guess de first gift is imp0ssible t0 find back le... haix...

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2006-02-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

`basketball`

haa... finally have de chance t0 plae basketball le... finally cn t0uch de ball le... haa... aft sk0l... went dwn cc... den plae wid auntie n 0ther ppl 0ver at de c0urt dere... haa.. it's was fun...

went bubble tea sh0p... b0ught 0ne drink 0ver dere... t0k wid aivy... den rq met m0i at dere... went t0 mac wid him... n0t l0ng wayliang n kelvin came... den went 146 c0ffee sh0p... acc rq g0 dere eat...

went hm d0 stuff f0r de la0 beng... printer g0nna run 0ut 0f ink lia0... sianx... right eye damn itchy... tml still g0t test... haven study.. sianx... haix...

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2006-02-06T13:37:00.000+08:00

10 feb will be de dae i g0nna receive prize f0r m0i pr0ject dis yr... well... actually dis prize shudnt g0 t0 m0i... c0s i nv c0ntribute in dis pr0ject... haix... is a disgrace if i take dis prize... haix... valentine dae cuming s00n... haix... s0 mani sad th happen... haix... sad life... fuck...

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2006-02-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

``

well... fri br0ught moi c0lleagues t0 the np 0pen hse... sh0w them the building whr their c0urses will be l0cated... den aft tt went dwn tp.. met arika... den saw her stead... wtf... g0t stead pei her den still ask m0i c0me...? 0mg... den kena f0rce t0 acc her t0 ps... den since at t0wn le... br0ught her g0 the wisma f00d republic dere eat de h0kkien mee... den m0i treat her l0r... wah liew... den saw chingay 0ver dere... beri de nice l0r... but t00 bad... she dun appreciate... den aft tt went back pp... g0 met her gan ge ge... den t0k f0r a while den send her back hm... aft tt met rq n s0me 0f his frens at mac... den aft a while wayliang n cl came... den hang ard till 4am plus... den went back hm slp... den ytd [since it's 0readi past 12 le...] supp0se t0 g0 sent0sa wid arika de... budden she slpt till beri late den wake up... wth... pig sia... hee... den neber g0 l0r... den while g0ing t0 chinat0wn tt time, she msg m0i that she jus w0ke up... den called her ask her whether wanna g0 chinat0wn an0t... c0s i'm buying m0i sk0l stuff dere... den she sae 0k... den went her hse... waited f0r her damn damn l0ng... put make up until damn l0ng... den aft tt went chint0wn l0r... den at dere... b0ught finish le den went t0 eat... treat her again... haix... den aft tt went pp bubble tea sh0p f0r a while... chat wid de la0 beng... aft tt went rent "final destination" vcd... aft tt she went 0ff meet her stead while i went derek hse watch de sh0w... at dere... kelvin, cl, wayliang n derek were playing mahj0ng... den rq came... den watched finish le... went dwn 146 c0ffee sh0p drink drink n dey eat eat... den aft tt went plae p00l... plae f0r a while den i rushed back hm d0 m0i hmwrk... did till nw... sianx... tml still nd t0 g0 wrk... wrking full shift... haix... i wanna g0 sent0sa n z00... haa... sianx... valentine dae cuming le... cant find ani0ne t0 g0 0ut wid... sianx... lonely valentine dae... haix... s0b s0b....

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2006-02-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

`back t0 de past`

stay in sk0l till 7pm plus... was c0mpletely n0 time f0r m0i wrk... s0 inf0rmed m0i supervisi0r saying tt i wun be cuming dwn t0 wrk t0dae... but tml yes... den in de aftnn... went far east wid m0i grp mate... searching f0r 0ur c0mp0nents... since cant find 0ur c0mp0nent... s0 we headed 0ur way t0 china t0wn... went dere b0ught 0ur stuff... den b0ught finished... we went china t0wn ate 0ur lunch... den aft tt headed 0ur way back t0 sk0l... reached sk0l near 5pm... den stayed in sk0l d0 de c0nnecti0n etc... den did till 7pm plus... den went back pp... den reached pp... went t0 de bubble tea sh0p... c0s la0 beng asked m0i t0 cum find him n take ang ba0 frm him 0n de f0urth dae 0f cny... s0 t00k frm him... thanks... but neber bring 0rganges... beri sry... den lata dey all came... den slack at mac first... den went rq hse plae mahj0ng... dey all plae while i at dere learn n watch.. at dere kind 0f sianx den went back hm first... dis new yr was damn sianx... nth fun t0 d0... n0 place t0 g0... s0mehw feel lyk t0 change m0iself... but i cant change much... dere's n0 return le... h0pe i cn g0 back t0 de past... haix... but i n0e dis cant be... it's imp0ssible de... haix... thus i cn 0ni be de way tt i cn be... haix... fucking d0g shit life...

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2006-02-01T10:29:00.000+08:00

`weird dream`

ytd hab a weird dream... it's lyk i was in dis particular sk0l... having m0i exam... i rmb de place whr de exam was held... it was at lecture hall 20... den went it t0 tt hall dun0 wad time... den aft entering... put m0i bag den went dwn stair de canteen eat... dere's 0ne m0re canteen jus bel0w de 0ther canteen... den i 0rder a vegetable 0il rice... den was lyk... de sk0l damn sp00ky... s0 0ld... s0 creepy... den w0ke up le... 0s0 dun0 hw cum i hab dis weird dream... n0 0ne i n0e appeared in m0i dream... 0ni m0i at dere dream... n 0f c0s... dere's student la... haix... s0 damn tired... w0ke up late thus reached sk0l late t00... still tinging 0f tt s0me0ne... but yet dun0 hu... haix... dis kind 0f feeling n0t tt gd... it's suck.... haix...

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2006-01-31T19:31:00.000+08:00

``

s0 damn b0ring t0dae... neber g0 bai nian... stay at hm slp... slpt till 4pm plus... w0ke up watch tv... n0 sh0w l0r... den ard evening time went dwn meet rq... f0r awhile den he went 0ff wid his fren g0 bai nian le... den al0ne g0 147 c0ffee sh0p eat... den aft tt went back hm.. haix.... s0 b0ring... feel lyk g0ing 0ut but dun0 ask hu g0... n 0s0 dun0 g0 whr... damn sianx... tml g0ing sk0l... den aft sk0l nd t0 g0 wrk... dun0 will kena sc0lded an0t lei.. c0s m0i hair c0l0ur... haix... valentine dae is jus 14 dae away... guess wun be ani diff f0r tt special dae... still de same ba... slack at hm... haix... white valentine dae... haix...

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2006-01-31T08:55:00.000+08:00

``

jus reached hm.... neber slpt de wh0le nite... went plae p00l in de evening... till m0rning 6am plus... lata g0nna g0 bai nian again... ytd was kind 0f diff... mind n s0ul was lyk missing s0me0ne... but yet i dun0 hu tt s0me0ne i'm missing... issit u...? but hu is she...? haix... but bef0re went f0r p00l... went rq hse gamble... l0se 14 bucks... haix... p00r luck... ytd read frm a magazine... saying m0i luck in dis d0g yr will be bad... dere's n0 gd luck f0r m0i... even in relati0nship... haix... ytd wh0le dae was s0 diff... damn diff m0i... haix... h0ping i cn n0e hu tt s0me0ne is...

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2006-01-29T17:07:00.000+08:00

`b0ring`

at grandpa hse dere damn b0ring... s0 left tt place earlier... den went back hm... haix... b0ring... feel lyk having s0me0ne by m0i side nw... haa... stupid tinging...

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2006-01-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

`new yr eve`

0h ya... wishing every 0ne 0f ur happi new yr... haa... but i g0t ani ang ba0 an0t ar? l0lx... well... went m0i grandma hse ytd... was m0i father side de... den went dere le... ate steamb0at... den went river h0ng ba0 dere... g0 walk walk... den c c... den headed 0ur way t0 0rchard t0 catch 0ur 2:15am sh0w... i'm n0t stupid t00... den aft tt slack ard at 0rchard... den wait till m0rning den t00k first bus g0 hm... den send 0nyi went back hm... den t00k cab frm macphers0n dere... reached hm ard 8am plus... den bath le den straight g0 slp... slp till beir late... den later g0ing m0i grandpa hse... m0ther side de... sianx... aft bai nian dun0 g0 whr... sianx...

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2006-01-25T13:03:00.000+08:00

`every yr de same`

when it's appr0aching cny... i will get sick... it's been 2 yr le... haix... 2 yr... same happening... haix... went c d0c t0dae... is bc0s kena flu le.. tt y kena sick... haix... bef0re tt... met arika... she acc m0i went c d0c... den aft tt she went ate lunch at 146 c0ffee sh0p... ate finished le... den she t00k cab g0 hm while i walked hm... nw damn weak... wh0le dae stay at hm... den t00k a sh0rt nap in de aftnn... eat de medi make m0i damn weak... haix... nw kind 0f feeling much better le... but hungry nw... cant eat much 0f de f00d... haix... feel lyk having biscult nw... but cant eat... haix... valentine dae cuming le... haix... ting wil be al0ne again.... every yr de same... haix... having white valentine dae... will dis yr be diff..? haix...

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2006-01-24T12:37:00.000+08:00

`g0nna quit?`

m0n neber went sk0l... w0ke up in de aftnn... c0mpletely late... haix... dun0 when will i be able t0 wake up earli by m0iself... haix... den went dwn saw aivy den she sae arika at bubble tea sh0p... s0 went find her... den sit sit t0k t0k sm0ke sm0ke... den we b0th feel lyk g0ing sent0sa... den we headed 0n 0ur way ard 3pm plus... but bef0re tt she nd t0 g0 bai bai at tanj0ng pagar... s0 acc her went dere... den bai bai finished le den she kind 0f late t0 g0 sent0sa le... s0 neber g0... den went taj0ng pagar de market dere hab 0ur dinner... den headed by t0 pp... den met rq, cl n wayliang dere... aft tt we include kelvin all went f0r p00l while arika went t0 find her stead... den plae f0r a while den went back pp 0nce again... den m0i, rq n kelvin sat at de v0id deck gamble while cl went back hm... i neber win n0r l0se... haa... den ytd finally clear finished de pack 0f cigarette tt i b0ught 0n sun... den nw kind 0f sick lia0... keep 0n c0ughing... den ting hab flu le... l0lx... coughing started ytd... den t0dae m0re w0rst... jia lat... ting sm0ke t00 much le... ting wun be buying anim0re packet 0f cigarette le... ting get frm m0i frens... :X... haa... smhw hab a feeling t0 quit... but scare c 0ther ppl sm0ke den hab de urge t0 start... er... haa... c hw ba... lata g0ing dwn 0rchard wid ck t00 g0 meet m0i fren... t0 take back m0i s0ck... c0s ask her t0 help m0i buy... haa... sianx.. sick dae... haix...

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2006-01-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

left sk0l ard 5pm plus t0 6pm... den went jacks0n p00l met cl n pc... den plae n0s ball... plae till damn du lan... every ball cant went in.. fuck sia... haix... den c0mpletely dr0wn m0i m00d... aft tt rq n alfred came... dey plae p00l while we still playing n0s ball... haix... den plae finished ard 9pm... 18 buck plus... fuck... den aft tt went jacks0n k0pitiam eat... den saw arika n her sis at dere... -.- den ate finished le den went back hm... finally f0und de s0ng i wan... by zha0 chuan - shen hai... s0ng damn sad... damn nice l0r... l0lx... tml g0tta wrk... ting g0nna slp earli ba... haa... haix... m0i jacket getting dirty le... fuck... hurt m0i heart sia... de jacket i lyk it beri much l0r... fuck... aRgh... th n0t getting de way i wan... fuck... psps... t00 mani bad w0rds le... ^^ f**k...

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2006-01-21T17:32:00.000+08:00

`0h hell`

damn tired... b0 bian... cant take it ani m0re... t0t cn kept m0iself awake budden cant... went t0 bed n slpt... haa... den w0ke up... n0t enuff time t0 study f0r m0i test... s0 neber study le... den went t00k de test... ting fail ba... haix... den m0i classmate t0ld m0i de web rep0rt nd t0 red0... c0s cant use fr0ntpage t0 d0... wtf... m0i spent m0i slp time t0 d0 de web rep0rt.... nw sae cant... wtf... fucking hell sia... haix... red0 den red0 l0r... den nw m0i classmate d0... i neber le... c0s he wan t0 d0 ma... haa... nw in sk0l... t0t cn help m0i classmate a little bit 0f de web rep0t budden he alm0st finish le... zzz... sianx.. quite a b0ring dae t0dae... haix... tml still nd t0 wrk full... haix... shack...

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2006-01-20T02:23:00.000+08:00

`n0 life at all`

wed aft wrk... rushing hm t0 c0ntinue m0i web rep0rt... haben bath haben ate m0i supper... jus kept 0n d0ing n d0ing... den did till near 2am... den st0p... bath le ate m0i supper den went t0 bed... c0mpletely late f0r sk0l dis m0rning... w0ke up damn late... class supp0se started at 8am... but reached sk0l 1pm... skipped 2 m0dule le... l0lx... damn tired... b0 bian... den aft sk0l... stayed at sk0l t0 c0ntinue m0i web rep0rt again... stayed in sk0l till near 11pm... damn shack... c0mpletely damn shack... dis is de first time m0i felt damn fucking shack... but b0 bian... tml ( i mean t0dae ) nd t0 hang in le... haix... den went back hm... straight use c0m den d0 de web rep0rt again... haix... did till nw... ting shud be d0ne le ba... haix... t0dae still g0t test... haben study... dun0 still g0t energy t0 study an0t... damn tired nw.... wanna slp... budden dun ting slping ba... c0s nd t0 study f0r m0i test... haix... fuck up life... ting g0nna fail le... but if i slp nw... surely cant wake up tml de... haix... stress man... t0dae still nd t0 g0 wrk aft sk0l... dun0 g0t energy t0 g0 wrk an0t... haix... sianx...

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2006-01-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

slpt damn late 0n m0n... reached hm aft playing bball... den faster 0nline den d0 m0i presenatati0ns le... did till 2am plus den l0g 0ff... den aft tt den ate m0i dinner... dinner at 2am plus... 0mg... den slpt at near 3am... w0ke up 6am plus... quickly rush t0 sk0l f0r de presntati0ns... damn shack tt dae l0r... eyes macham cant 0pen wide... haix.. den aft sk0l den went dwn wrk straight... wrk frm 1pm plus t0 11pm plus... den aft tt met pc hab a 2 sticks 0f hunki den went hm le...reached hm ard near 1am... den bath le c00k m0i mee den went bed le... t0dae late f0r sk0l.... woke up near 10am... t0tally damn late.... reached sk0l ard near 1pm... haix... lata still g0nna g0 wrk... haix... shack man...

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2006-01-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

`fuck up dae`

tml guess will be de fuck up dae f0r m0i... haix... g0t tw0 presentati0ns 0n 0ne dae... sianx... 0ne is WISP n de 0ther 0ne is ED... 0s0 dun0 wad t0 present 0n de WISP... m0i c0mpletely hab n0 c0ntributed 0n tt grp wrk... haix... sry every0ne... den s f0r ED... g0tta t0k abt setting up casin0 in singap0re... agree 0r disagree? haix... stress dae... haix... jus nw went dwn tp wid ck... went de pasa malam b0ught m0i c0llar t-shirt f0r 20 buck... black in c0l0ur... XL size... den walked pass de balen0 sh0p... saw 0ne a cute gurl... wanna get her n0s... budden dun dare... sure kena rejecti0n de l0r... m0i s0 ugly... she sure c m0i she za0 l0r... haix... den in de end neber take... haix... den aft tt went back pp... meet rq, bk n pc... plae bball f0r a while den went back hm ard 10pm sharp... reached hm... bathed le... den cum 0nline d0 m0i ED presentati0n tml... haix... damn nerv0us l0r... haix... g0tta wake up 5am tml... sianx... dun0 cn wake up an0t.. haix... nw bank 0ni left wid 3 buck plus... n0 m0ney le... den tml still nd t0 wrk... haix... fri still g0t test.. haben study... haix... fuck up life... haix... well... i wun surprise 0ne dae i c0llasp 0nt0 de fl00r n die... l0lx...

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2006-01-16T10:38:00.000+08:00

damn shack again... l0t 0f return nd t0 be d0ne ytd... de wh0le dae was jus mainly d0ing return 0f g00ds... well... learn a new stuff ytd.... hw t0 key return purchase 0rder... haa... l0ts 0f steps sia... learn until damn blur... nw tp dere g0t pasa malan... ting t0dae g0ing dere again... g0 buy t-shirt.. ytd b0ught a t-shirt L size f0r 8 buck... haa... n0 m0ney le... t0dae g0nna buy a 20 buck plus c0lar t-shirt... sianx... n0 m0ney... dun0 hw t0 buy... haix... den ytd aft wrk... met ck at mac... return him de 10 buck... den aft tt went hm le... called rq c0s he sae reached pp den called him... budden i guess he slpin by de time i reached pp... t0dae w0ke up late again... n 0s0 late f0r sk0l again... haix... st0ck take cuming again... tues n wed n sun mus wrk... haix... sianx... sun actually wanna g0 swimming... budden kena f0rce t0 wrk... c0s n0 multi media staff wrk 0n sun... s0 m0i g0tta cum.... haix... sianx... i wanna l0t n l0t 0f m0ney.... haix...

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2006-01-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

`fri de thirteen`

ytd was fri de thirteen... t0t will be a bad dae f0r m0i.. but s0mehw it turned t0 be a gd dae f0r m0i... in de aftnn... able t0 reach sk0l 0n time... enuff time f0r m0i t0 acc0mplish m0i pr0ject... den guess wad... sth tt reali make m0i damn damn fucking happi... i g0t 100 marks f0r m0i MSD m0dule... damn damn damn happi... thanks g0d... damn happi... den tt dae... i went met m0i ex c0lleague at 0rchard.. den treat dem eat prata at wisma f00dc0urt... dere de h0kkien mee damn nice.. queue 0s0 damn l0ng... haa... den ate finish le... went watch m0vie... heirl00m... 9:30pm sh0w... den watch finish le... den headed back hm.. but bef0re meeting m0i ex c0lleague dey all... went b0ught a pack 0f cigarette... well... sm0ke quite a l0t 0f tt dae... at least half a packet... den s0mehw... sm0ke till nearly t0 de half... kind 0f lyk dun feel lyk sm0king... -.- 0s0 dun0 y... haa... but still t0dae still sm0ke finish it 0ff... haa... den reached pp le... met pc, derek n ck... den d0 newspaper th until de classified finish den m0i n ck went back hm first... earned $10 buck... mus reali sae sry t0 pc n derek... cant pei dem wrk till de end... c0s t00 tired le... den reached hm... bath le den went bed...

den t0dae w0ke up ard 11am plus... den meet alfred n derek, wid ver0n t00k bus dwn t0 de lan sh0p at serang00n dere... den plae d0ta again.. haa... sec0nd time playing.. hee... but still a newbie... haa... kena 0wn al0t 0f time... sianx... den plae till 4pm plus den went back pp... den g0 plae p00l.... we learned hw t0 plae n0s ball frm 0ne uncle... tt uncle kind 0f nia0... but ting he's de expert ba... he taught us hw t0 plae... n plae wid us... but he plae f0r free... haa... den aft playing till 9pm plus... den went hm d0 m0i pr0ject... finally finished m0i part le... dun0 whether cn an0t... haix... damn stress... tml g0tta wrk full.... shack man... den went hm 0nline... den chat wid HER... was kind 0f sh0ck but 0f c0s happi... s0 l0ng neber chat wid HER le... dun0 hw is SHE... hapi f0r HER tt SHE hab f0und HER 0ne le.... well.... was kind 0f sad but still th r 0ver le... c0ngrate HER... wishes HER all de best... ^^

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2006-01-11T11:35:00.000+08:00

`shack 0ut`

ytd help 0ut in de new j0b... is abt l0ading, pasting n keeping de g00ds... kind 0f tired... start wrk ard 11am den end at 7pm... g0t 40 buck... aft tt... went hm bath le.. den meet m0i fren n cl, rq n wayliang... at mac slack f0r a while den went hm le... t0dae was kind 0f tired... eyes r unable t0 0pen wide... felt s0 dry... damn shack dis few dae... 0r even cn sae few week ba... new yr cuming... haix... dun0 dis new yr will dere be ani diff f0r m0i an0t... haix... lata g0tta wrk.. tired... haix...

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2006-01-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

`diff life`

jus reached hm... was playing p00l wid rq n alfred jus nw... tml g0nna wrk a new j0b... w0ndering issit interesting... haa... 1 hr $4.50... g0nna be a hard i supp0se... haix... m0i dad bike sp0ilt... h0pe cn earn m0re m0ney t0 aff0rd him a bike... haix... maybe f0rget abt dying m0i hair le... haix...

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2006-01-09T13:35:00.000+08:00

`daes 0f shacks`

fri

having m0i last paper... ting wun be getting ani better result... haix... but s0mehw hab de same ans wid m0i frens when c0mparing de ans... s0 hmm... 0s0 dun0 cn pass well an0t... l0lx... den aft tt... went meet m0i fren... den g0 tp... den aft tt... came back... g0 plae p00l wid rq, kerin, cl n alfred... den aft tt g0 d0 newspaper wid pc n derek till de nxt m0rning... first time d0ing tt job.. kind 0f fun n 0s0 t0ugh t00...

sat

aft tt newspapers j0b... neber went back hm straight... went plae lan... first time plan lan lei... n 0s0 first time plae d0ta... haa... kind 0f fun... but cant 0was plae... mus c0ntr0l... dun wan waste m0ney... scare kena d0ta/lan fever... den jia lat le... l0lx... plae frm 11 plus till 4 plus... 0ni $4.50... cheap h0r... den aft tt... went back hm... bath le den meet rq, bk, cl, pc n alfred... went dwn 0rchard t0 b0ught their new yr cl0thes... den sh0p till 10 0r 11 plus... den take cab went back hm... damn tired 0n tt dae... 0h ya... tt dae we 0s0 g0t t00k ne0 print... l0lx... den reached pp le... at dwnstair slack t0k t0k f0r a while... well.. is dey t0k t0k... i t00k a sh0rt nap... den aft tt i went hm first.. while dey still at dwnstair i guess.... went hm.. eat m0i dinner... den went slp le...

sun

m0rning w0ke up at 12 n00n... den w0ke up jus f0r a while den went back t0 bed again... damn tired.... w0ke up at 3pm... f0und 0ut tt m0i g0nna late t0 meet cl n rq le.... quickly dash 0ut 0f bed n rush t0 bath... but bath 0ni aft m0i dad turns... actually met dem at 3:30pm de... budden in de end met dem at 4:30pm... den went dwn bugis... went dere b0ught 0urs new yr cl0thes again... at dere... m0i b0ught a taper jean n a l0ng sleaves butt0n shirt... den t00k cab headed dwn 0rchard... den went t0 far east de 77th street t0 buy m0i jacket... white wid 0range n br0wn straps... seem nice t0 m0i... wh0le dae was raining l0r... br0ught de umbrella every whr... beri tr0ubles0me... well... alt0gether spent $115.85 f0r m0i new yr cl0thes.. haix... br0ke le... bank 0ni left $20 plus.. haix... still haben buy finish yet.. but nw n0 m0ney le... ting dun hab t0 buy anim0re le... sianx... den aft tt... t00k cab went back pp den meet m0i fren at dere... den aft tt wid m0i frens f0r a while den went back hm le.... went hm bath le den watch tv den slp le...

m0n

0verslpt... fuck... late f0r sk0l le... w0ke up at 10 plus... reached sk0l ard 12 plus... damn tired... b0 bian... still haben completely t0p up m0i energy... energy is getting weaker n weaker... haix... fuck up life... n a fuck up m0i... haix...

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2006-01-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

`1 m0re hr`

last paper is t0dae... 1 m0re hr t0 g0... damn w0rry... haix... dun0 whether cn pass an0t... c0s dis paper damn hard t0 pass... haix... finally i get t0 realise dis sentence... "it's hard t0 f0rget s0me0ne tt is impt t0 u..." well... still unable t0 f0rget HER rite nw... haix... feeling damn miserable... haix... but life still nd t0 g0 0n... will try t0 live well de... chi new yr is jus ard de c0rner... g0nna g0 purchase s0me new yr cl0thes le... g0nna br0ke again... haix... aniwei... earli wishing ur hapi chi new yr... if g0t g0 buy cl0thes let m0i n0e h0r... haa... i 0s0 wanna g0 buy... l0lx.... ^^

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2006-01-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

`c0mm0n test`

0mg... suck... damn suck... paper damn hard... dun0 whether cn pass an0t... haix... few qns unable t0 ans it... 0mg... dis time reali die le... haix... 0ne last paper tml... still haben study... tt 0ne damn hard... haix... fail f0r sure le... haix... stress... life sux... haix...

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2006-01-04T15:50:00.000+08:00

`1 m0re dae`

tml is de first paper le... haix...damn stress... life lyk hell sia... haix... scare fail... did de past yr paper... l0ts 0f qns left unkn0wn... haix... hw t0 survive f0r tml paper? haix... s0mehw n0t feeling quite happi... depress 0nce again... mind was tinging... if wanna be a fren... mean it... dun d0 bad th behind him 0r sae bad th behind his/her back... mean f0r wad u sae... if u dun mean it... y still be a fren at first... same g0es f0r c0uple.. if u reali d0 l0ve him/her... mean it... n mean it when u sae de three w0rds... 0r else... y u accept him/her at de beginning... haix.. 0s0 dun0 y i sae dis... haix... jus feeling stress... fuck up life...

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2006-01-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

`new yr eve`

slacking at hse till evening... den went dwn stair ard 6 plus f0r m0i dinner... meanwhile meet alfred n kelvin first... den aft tt cl, pc n rq came al0ng... den ard 9 plus... we 0n 0ur way t0 esplanade... but bef0re tt... we met jerv0nne at city hall... dere was damn cr0wed... every0ne was lyk squeezing each 0ther... den at dere... we met ck, wayliang n 0ne 0f his fren... den headed t0 de riverside... t0 catch de firewrks... bef0re it started... dere's 0ne scene damn nice... balls fl0ating 0n de river... damn nice... plus de lighting shinning 0nt0 de balls... it's damn g0rge0us... firewrks started exactly at 12... last f0r dun0 hw l0ng... 0ur visi0n was kena bl0cked by 0ne tall tree... but still get a peep 0f tt firewrks... was reali unf0rgetable... den aft de c0unt dwn... we met bk... while rq left wid his frens... den headed t0 parklane t0 plae p00l... aft tt... we went hab 0ur supper near bugis... 0n de way t0 dere... tw0 americans ladies walked pass m0i n ck n sc0lded m0i filthy animal? 0mg... wth... y m0i?... den i sc0lded dem back... i said... "i'm n0t a filthy animal... i'm a xmas tree?" -.- 0s0 dun0 y i said dere... l0lx... well... den aft supper... t00k cab dwn t0 jacks0n... den went dere plae p00l 0nce again... den ard 6 plus... headed hm... was kind 0f crazy de wh0le dae... enj0y m0iself much.... haa... aniwei... hapi new yr every0ne... haix... a new yr hab began... but m0i life is still de same... haix...

kena w0ke up by m0i supervisi0r... calling m0i asking m0i t0 c0me wrk... den reached wrk place ard 4... den was damn tired.. still nd t0 wrk 0T... haix... shack man... den reached hm... watched tv le... den slpt ard 3 plus... c0mm0n test cuming s00n... 3 m0re daes... haix... haben s tart studying.. haix...

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2005-12-29T11:55:00.000+08:00

ytd nite went plae p00l wid rq, wayliang n cl... t0gether wid 0nyi n 4 0f her frens... plae till 4am plus... den dey all went hm le... we went plaegrd slack f0r a while... den aft tt went hm... w0ke up at 9:30am... den acc0mpany ck g0 hab 0ur m0rning j0g... his stamina damn gd... i ran until beri tired le... he still n0t tired l0r... pei fu pei fu... den aft tt g0 kopitiam hab 0ur breakfast... den ate le went back hm... damn tired... lata maybe g0ing buy cl0thes 0r jean ba... den evening time maybe g0 senkang cc... c0s dey all g0ing dere plae ball... c hw ba... dun0 g0ing an0t... damn tired... haix...

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2005-12-28T16:37:00.000+08:00

ytd was damn tired... w0ke up late... supp0se t0 g0 sk0l... but nv g0... t00 tired le... den at hm d0 de website... did half way c0m aut0 shut dwn... haix... c0m g0nna sp0ilt le... since cant use c0m... den went take a nap... n0t f0r l0ng... bk called m0i... asked m0i g0 t0 g0 plae p00l... budden i rejected him c0s i'm t00 tired... den alfred called m0i again... asked m0i g0 plae p00l 0s0... still rejected him... w0ke up abt 6pm... bath le den g0 dwnstair b0ught dinner... den msg bk whr is he... den went plae p00l wid him since he wanna plae s0 much... aft tt alfred j0ined us... plae til 9pm plus... den bk went 0ff first... den left 0ni m0i n alfred... plae till 10pm den st0p le... t0tal was abt $14.50 lyk tt... n0 m0ney le... lata g0nna g0 wrk... damn shack... sianx... ytd was c0mpletely n0 m00d... f0und 0ut tt SHE hab stead le... haix... damn sad... but cant d0 anith... haix...

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2005-12-27T13:03:00.000+08:00

sat
m0rning was t0tally damn sian... slacking at hm... until alfred called m0i... den g0 dwnstair meet him n his fren danny... den sat at mac chit chat... den dey all left le... den m0i went back hm again... at hm watched tv... den aft tt... alfred called m0i again... den came dwn stair meet him again... den went tp t0gether wid him... went t0 m0i wrk place... wished m0i colleague merry xmas... den aft tt went back pp... den g0 meet cl n rq... den hav m0i dinner... den wait f0r few h0ur den headed dwn t0 0rchard... dere damn cr0wded... den meet m0i fren yv0nne n 2 0thers her fren at 0rchard mrt... we den walked dwn t0 taka dere t0 meet alfred... 0n de way... we b0ught 0ne b0ttle 0f f0am... kena spray all 0ver 0ur bdy... sian... kena face 0s0... wtf... den aft tt... den dey all feel lyk playing p00l... den headed t0 cineleisure de k-p00l... den lata wayliang n li0nel cum j0ined us... den play until quite l0ng... den g0 l0ng j0hn eat... waited f0r an0ther 0f m0i fren 0nyi... den lata she cum le... den we headed t0 parklane... reached parklane... nth t0 d0... den walked back t0 machperson... 0n de way t0 dere... raining... den t00k shelther at a v0ild deck... at dere.. we plae true 0r dare... den aft tt... dey c0ntinued playing while m0i n pc take a rest... we g0 plae de plaegrd... plae plaegrd under a falling rain... damn shi0k sia... den waited till 8 plus den g0 de 0ppsite de c0ffee sh0p hab 0ur breakfast... den aft tt t00k bus g0 back jacks0n k0pitam... den wanna plae p00l de... budden cant... den aft tt i went hm first while dey all still at de k0pitam... g0 hm... straight bath le den headed t0 bed... damn tired...

sun
w0ke p abt 3 plus... rushed t0 bath... den quickly g0 wrk... reached dere at 4pm plus... late le... haix... den d0 de st0cks... damn l0ts sia... while wrking... damn tired sia... wanna slp at anitime ani m0ment... den kept buying swt n drank tea t0 prevent m0iself frm slping... den wrk till 10 plus le... 0n de way hm.... rq called m0i... asked m0i t0 meet him... budden t0ld him i'm t00 tired... nxt dae still nd t0 wrk full... s0 neber meet him le... den went back hm.. bath le den g0 slp le...

m0n

w0ke up... n went t0 wrk le... still de same... feeling sleepy while wrking... damn tired... wh0le dae d0ing st0cks n serving de cust0mers... haix... den during dinner break... neber hab dinner... f0ll0wed m0i fren arika g0 buy her hp... aft wrk... went meet rq, cl n derek... den hab m0i dinner... den eat finish le... at dwn stair slack... den until 12 n00n... den headed back hm... watched tv... bath le... den went slp le...

tue

jus w0ke up n0t l0ng ag0... den sms m0i fren wenh0ng... t0ld him cant make it t0 sk0l t0dae... c0s t00 tired le... sry... g0nna plan t0 d0 de website at hm le... tml mus g0 t0 sk0l... mus slp earli t0nite... c0s c0mm0n test cuming le... 1 m0re week... haix... stress... h0pe cn pass...

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2005-12-24T11:25:00.000+08:00

`br0ke xmas`

n0 m0ney le... hw t0 g0 0ut sia... haix... dun0 lata g0 0ut hw t0 survive... haix... stress... dis xmas damn stress... wun be lyk last time le... c0mpletely diff xmas frm past yr... haix... aniwei... merry xmas t0 all...

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2005-12-23T18:15:00.000+08:00

`xmas cuming s00n`

xmas is ard de c0rner le... haix... dun0 whr t0 g0... s0 mani dae neber update le... wed watched King K0ng again wid m0i br0, ver0n... s0 envy her sia... she s0 l0ve her stead... her stead 0s0 s0 l0ve her... envy envy envy... den 0n thur which mean ytd... g0t m0i xmas present frm m0i supervisi0r... haa... a b0x 0f candies... yum yum... g0nna br0ke le... went t0 l00k at m0i bank acc... hell sia.. 0ni left $20 sth... g0nna br0ke... xmas hw t0 celebrate sia... maybe during xmas eve... g0 0rchard spray ppl ba... c0s m0i frens dey all sae dey wanna g0 plae spray... c hw ba... aniway... merry xmas every0ne... ^^

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2005-12-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

`siick 0nce agaiin`

wh0le dae slpiing at hm... damn tiired... s0re thr0at hab n0t rec0ver... here cuum de headache agaiin... damn weak... s0mehw hab an uurge nw t0 g0 malaysiia sh0p agaiin... n0t d0ne wiid m0ii sh0ppiing... l0lx... miind was nw tiingiing 0f de endiing part 0f kiing k0ng... endiing part was damn t0uuchiing... haiix...

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2005-12-19T15:16:00.000+08:00

`malaysiia triip`

ytd went j0h0r bahruu wiid m0ii frens... dey all dr0ve cars went dere... t0tal dere 6 cars... 22 ppl... damn l0ts 0f ppl l0r... den fiirst th 0nce enteriing iint0 malaysiia... went sh0ppiing... went t0 diis sh0ppiing center called Ciity Squuare... diis sh0ppiing center macham lyk sp0re de Juur0ng P0iint... haa... at dere ii b0uught a paiir 0f c0nverse sh0e f0r abt RM40... den b0uught a radii0actiive belt f0r abt RM48... den b0uught a t-shiirt f0r abt RM39.90... b0uught uuntiill n0 muuch m0ney left... den aft tt went eat luunch... actuually g0 eat de fam0uus yoong tauu fuu at malaysiia de... buut 0ne 0f m0ii fren juus reached JB... s0 we went dwn n fetch hiim... whiile de rest haviing theiir yoong tauu fuu... aft tt... went plae Go Kart... l0lx... dey all plae... we neber plae... c0s when 0uur tuurn arriived... sky iis raiiniing le... l0lx... nxt tiime den plae ba... siince iit's stiill earlii... den we dr0ve t0 a nearby sh0ppiing center n sh0p agaiin... dere muuch l00k lyk sp0re de IMM buuildiing.. at dere saw a present... wanna buuy f0r HER... buudden aft heariing wad m0ii fren t0ld m0ii... ii neber b0uught iit... haiix... den aft tt... went eat seaf00d.. dere seaf00d quiite fam0us ii tiing... al0ts 0f ppl... tt place iis all sell seaf00d de... buut g0t al0ts 0f stall... juus lyk Mariina S0uuth... g0t al0ts 0f steamb0at buffet... de scenery at tt quuiite niice... cn c 0cean... 0s0 sp0re island... haa... tiing tt place iis call 0rang alsii... haa... 0s0 duun0 hw t0 spell... den aft eattiing g0 back t0 sp0re le... 0n de way back... 0ne 0f m0ii fren car meet wiid an acciident... bang iint0 m0ii an0ther fren car... den st0p by petr0l stn near de cuust0m... 0s0 duun0 hw t0 spell... haa... dere jam uuntiil lyk hell siia... den at sp0re le... st0p at de r0ad sh0uulder at de expressway 0nce 0uut 0f malaysiia... gather ard fiirst... den aft tt.. m0ii sat 0n m0ii an0ther fren car... den he sent m0ii hm... reach hm area ard 12pluus... den saw pc, ck, n derek... den wiid dem f0r a whiile... rq lata cuum... den eat suupper den g0 hm le... damn tiired dae... tml stiill nd t0 g0 sk0l d0 pr0ject.. nw haviing s0re thr0at agaiin... haiix... siianx...

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2005-12-17T16:48:00.000+08:00

`buusy daes`

wed & thuurs

wrk wrk wrk...

frii

m0rniing went ICA buiildiing... g0 renew m0ii passp0rt... den pay $5.25 f0r m0ii passp0rt f0t0... c0s m0ii l00k diifferent iin m0ii previi0uus f0t0 le... den extend m0ii passp0rt tiill n0v 2006... aft n0v 2006 muus make a new passp0rt le... luucky siia... stiill cn g0 JB diis cuumiing suun... haa... den aft renewiing m0ii passp0rt... ruush dwn t0 sk0l... luuckiily reach sk0l 0n tiime... t0t renewiing berii l0ng... haa... den aft sk0l went hm slp f0r a whiile den g0 wrk le... diis wh0le week g0t wrk... damn tiired... den aft tt... went niite cycliing wiid cl & 0nyii pluus her fren weii l0ng... a yanda0 w0r... haa... riide t0 amk... den g0 de S-11 c0ffee sh0p hab 0uur suupper... den aft tt riide t0 biishan park dere... slack at de plaegrd... uuntiil abt 5 pluus ba.... den went hm le...

sat

0nii slpt f0r 3 hr niia... den aft tt meet rq, pc & cl... g0 de fact0ry dere wrk... 1 hr f0r $4... pay quuiite l0w buut stiill 0k la... dere iincluude free luunch f0r euu... kiind 0f gd enuuff le... den g0 dere help 0uut iin de packagiing 0f water... wrk f0r 5 hr... t00k 0uutr pay straiight aft wrk... tt mean iis $20... den aft tt take cab g0 hm... lata g0ing watch "King K0ng"... tiing t0dae g0t de pay t0dae fiiniish ba... haiix... tml g0ing JB le... fiirst tiime went 0uutsiide 0f sp0re wiid m0ii sk0lmates... haa... duun0 wiill enj0y m0iiself dere an0t... dey dr0ve car g0 whiile ii siit 0n theiir car... haa... h0pe cn buuy l0t 0f cl0thes... haa...

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2005-12-14T11:32:00.000+08:00

`t0ng meng qii yuuan`

ytd aft 0nliiniing... went watch sh0w at hm... watch "t0ng meng qii yuuan"... eng tiitle ii tiing iis "waiit tiill euu r y0uung"... starriing andy lauu... de st0ry iis abt a y0uung b0ii huu hate hiis famiily c0s he felt tt de famiily cauuse de death 0f hiis m0ther... he 0s0 hate hiis dad c0s he t0t hiis dad hab f0rg0ttern hiis wiife... s0 tt y he wiish t0 gr0w uup... t0 be an aduult... s0 tt he cn leave tt hse... den 0ne dae... he g0t t0 n0e dis 0ld man... 0ld man t0ld hiim tt he hab a berii p0werfuul p0tii0n... whiich cn make liiviing th gr0w uup iinstant... de b0ii ask f0r tt p0tii0n buut de 0ld man decliined... s0 de b0ii steal de p0tii0n frm tt 0ld man whiile he was eatting... acciidentally... he fall dwn... he br0ke de glass 0f p0tii0n... buut huu n0e... s0me 0f de p0tii0n went iint0 de b0ii w0uund whiich he g0t iit frm de fell... den dae by dae.. he grew 0lder n 0lder... at fiirst he felt happii c0s he's an aduult le... den he cn w00 de teacher tt he lyk siince he was a b0ii... den 3 daes lata... he started t0 gr0w 0ld... whiite haiir start cuummiing 0uut... at de end... he realiise tt hiis dad hab n0t f0rg0ttern hiis pass-away wiife... he kiind 0f regret... fiinally he hab de c0uurage t0 c hiis dad agaiin... he t0ld hiis dad n hiis stepm0ther hw regret he was... tt tiime when he saw dem... he was berii berii 0ld le... whiite haiir n wriinkles... at de end.. whiile he was siitiing 0n a tree whiich when he was y0uung... he uused t0 siit 0n tt tree t0 investigate de c0ndiitii0n iin hiis hse... he siit dere... sl0wly.. he lean 0nt0 hiis stepm0ther sh0uulder... he pass away... damn sad l0r... diis iis de fiirst m0viie tt ii watch le i cry l0r... damn t0uuchiing siia... best man... recc0mended... ii wanna g0 buuy de dvd... damn niice... cn fiight wiid de m0viie "zaii suu0 yii cii w0 aii nii"... tt 0ne 0s0 berii sad... haa...

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2005-12-13T14:36:00.000+08:00

t0dae berii earlii reached hm... c0s less0n tiill 12n00n... den went straight hm... d0 m0ii reflectiive essay 2... wr0te f0r quuiite l0ng... t0dae at class... damn tiired... late f0r less0n again... t00 tiired le... nw 0s0 berii tiired... buut duun0 h0w cuum duun feel lyk slpiing? l0lx... c0m g0iing sp0iilt s00n le... restart 3 0r 4 tiimes t0dae... siianx... haiix... m0ii liife 0readii berii l0uusy le... nw c0m 0s0 l0uusy... iissiit everyth tt bel0ng t0 m0ii all l0uusy? haiix...

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2005-12-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

``

juus came back frm dwnstaiir... aft presentatii0n went f0r luunch at buukiit tiimah tt area... t00k fren's car... he dr0ve uus dere... den aft eatiing den headed back t0 sk0l... 0n de way back... m0ii fren n an0ther 0f m0ii fren race... l0lx... damn thriilliing siia... haa... nearly lang ga... l0lx... damn fast siia... he cuut here cuut dere... macham b0 jiin huu [n0 g0vernment]... haa... buut iin de end... we l0st... l0lx... c0s de taxii bl0ck 0uur way... den sk0l diismiiss le... siit m0ii an0ther fren car g0 back hm... reached pp le... headed hm fiirst... c0s n0 0ne at dwnstaiir... den slp f0r a whiile... den fren called m0ii... den came dwnstaiir meet dem... den g0 plae p00l wiid dem... ard 10pluus den cl0se table... t0dae presentatii0n kiind 0f sm00th ii suupp0se... t00k al0t 0f class f0t0... haa... guuess ii'm de 0nii 0ne tt l00ks uugly... haa... g0t tiime den puut iit 0n bl0g 0r frenster... stiill duun0 hw t0 uupl0ad f0t0 t0 bl0g... haa... learniing... l0lx...

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2005-12-12T12:15:00.000+08:00

`presentatii0n 0ver`

presentatii0n fiinally 0ver le... at de presentatii0n... damn friighten siia... m0ii keep shiiveriing... den when giiviing speech m0ii keep mumberiing... haiix... den berii hard t0 sae 0uut c0s m0ii eng n0t berii gd.. s0 kiind 0f uuse br0ken eng... haiix... iif 0utc0me de resuult n0t berii gd... ii duuii buu qii m0ii teammate... haiix... nw fiinally 0ver le... kiind 0f reliieve... haiix... damn stress juus nw...

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2005-12-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

`niite riidiing`

ytd rq called m0ii... ask m0ii wanna g0 f0r cycliing... den ii sae 0k l0r... den g0 dwn 146 c0ffee sh0p meet hiim... t0gether... m0ii rq n cl g0 riide biicycle... we r0de t0 pasiir riis... pass by bed0k... den tampiines... den exp0... den fiind 0uurselve tt we realii l0st... den headed back t0 tampiines agaiin... den frm dere... we asked a taxii uuncle f0r diirectii0n... thanks t0 hiim... den we fiinally reached pasiir riis... fiinally... aft 2 hr pluus ii suupp0se... den we r0de thr0uugh de pasiir riis park... den headed t0 de plaegrd... plae f0r quiite a whiile... den headed back hm... 0n de way back hm... raiiniin siia... wtf... den we st0p at 0ne 0f de buus st0p t0 take shelter... we went 0ff when de raiin gettiing smaller... r0de half way... den start raiiniing agaiin... raiin damn heavy... den kena s0aked uuntiill damn wet... siince 0readii wet le... den neber take shelter... carry 0n riidiing... damn c0ld siia... c0mpletely wet... m0ii cl0thes... m0ii p0uuch... m0ii cap all wet... den r0de tiill bed0k le... den st0p raiiniing le... den fiinally reach pp... damn happi... st0p at de 146 c0ffee sh0p... ate 0ur m0rniing breakfast den g0 straiight hm... reach hm abt 6am iin de m0rniing... bath le... den read de newspaper... den went t0 slp... slp tiilll juus w0ke uup... damn tiired... haiix... tml g0t presentatii0n... berii f0rmal presentatii0n... all de head 0f department cuumiing... haiix... haben prepare yet... haiix... stress... damn scare siia... haiix.... ytd at niite cycliing keep 0n c0uughiing... haiix... uuntiill quuiite late at niite den seld0m c0uugh le... haiix... ytd wiid dem ii damn quuiit siia... haiix... s0mehw n0t feeliing s0 happii ytd... haiix... 0k le... st0p here le...

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2005-12-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

`haiix... haiix... haiix...`

berii berii swaii... haiix... tiing c0m g0nna sp0ilt s00n le... haiix... uuntiil 3 attempt den cn suucessfully uuse m0ii c0m... haiix... duun0 wad happen 0s0... haiix... damn swaii... haiix... den duun0 y 0s0... duun0 huu cn ii reallii truust... haiix... damn fuuckiing fan... haiix... duun0 y m0ii liife s0 manii th happen de... haiix... t0dae went f0r haiir cuut... den aft tt peii bk g0 amk buuy f00d f0r hiis stead... den meanwhiile g0 dere eat 0s0... den aft tt... take traiin t0 0rchard den walk t0 far east... den he g0 meet hiis stead... den m0ii g0 huunt f0r sh0p tt sell puurple c0l0uur haiir dye... buut stiill cant fiind... haiix... maybe g0 sal0n dye ba... buut n0 m0ney... den aft tt went back ppcc... meet de rest 0f dem... aft a whiile den g0 hm le... haiix... damn siianx... feel lyk g0 riide bicycle... buut tiing wuun be anii 0ne t0 ask ba... haiix... l0ts 0f t0rns iin m0ii liife... liife iis gettiing meaniingless f0r m0ii le... haiix...

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2005-12-10T11:53:00.000+08:00

`tiired`

ytd aft tt paper den went hm 0nliine le... den aft tt hab m0ii diiner le den g0 wrk le... damn tiired l0r... haiix... thuur wh0le dae neber slp... haiix... nw kiind 0f siick agaiin le... c0uugh stiill haben g0 away... haiix... weak health.... den aft tt meet ariika n m0ii gan meii meii... den t0k f0r a whiile den g0 hm le... g0 hm slp... haa... fiinally cn slp le.. l0lx... wake up 10+ den g0 sk0l... nw iin sk0l 0nliine den prepare f0r de presentatii0n 0n m0n... haiix... damn scare... t0niite feel lyk g0 riide biicycle... haiix... duun0 g0t ppl g0 an0t leii... siianx... haiix...

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2005-12-09T16:08:00.000+08:00

`hauunted place`

diidn't slp agaiin... l0lx... ytd went cedar prii n senette prii dere... g0 huunt f0r gh0st? l0lx... duun feel lyk g0iing de... buudden kena f0rce... s0 b0 biian... lata dey sae m0ii buuaii steady... -.- den aft tt... g0 plaegrd dere siit siit plae plae... plae de macham lyk r0ller c0aster chaiir... l0lx... m0ii plae uuntiil damn diizzy... at fiirst duun0 h0w t0 st0p... thanks f0r rq... he h0ld m0ii leg... buudden... m0ii stiill fell 0nt0 de grd... haa... de wh0le dae... we g0t quuarrel... due t0 s0me stuupiid th... haa... tiing back kiind 0f siilly... n dere's lauughter t00... l0lx.. m0st 0f de tiime iis dey entertaiin... m0ii 0nii at 0ne c0rner liisten t0 theiir entertaiinment... l0lx... at dere... g0t quuiite a n0s 0f ppl... g0t wayliang... rq... pc... cl... 0nyii... jev0nne... n mj... buut he went hm quuiite earlii... aft de viisiitiing 0f cedar prii... damn swaii iis tt... when enteriing de senette prii... we cliimb thru de wiire fence... den we nd t0 stand 0nt0 a tree t0 all0w uus t0 cliimb dwn frm de wiire fence... den ii l00k at de tree... kiind 0f saw s0me "shape"... iis a kiind 0f b0dy hangiing upsiide dwn... cr0ssiing "iit" hands t0uchiing "iit" alb0w... buut iis a tree truunk... buut damn scary l0r... iit l00k s0 muuch lyk a huuman l0r... damn sp00ky siia... den ii saw le... ii pray t0 de tree... c0s we step de tree iin 0rder f0r uus t0 g0 iin ma... haiix... den when g0 0ut...

stiill nd t0 cliimb 0ver... den m0ii hand kena a beri l0ng cuut bc0s 0f de wiire fence... c0s de wiire fence iis secuure by th0se lyk g0t sharp sharp th de wiire ma... duun0 hw t0 sae... l0lx... damn swaii l0r... haiix... well... ii duun0 m0ii frens dey all d0 enj0y muuch ytd an0t... haiix.. iif dey duun... haiix.. sry every0ne... haiix... hate m0iiself cant briing entertaiinment t0 dem... haiix... b0 biian... c0s ii'm saddy... haiix... 0nii cn briing saddness.. l0lx... den t0dae aft cuumiing back... g0 sk0l le... damn tiired l0r... tiing t0dae paper faiil le... careless miistake ba... l0lx.. den ask de teacher t0 teach m0ii... haa... diis iis de fiirst tiime ii faiil m0ii paper yet damn happii siia... l0lx... haiix... nw was lyk tiingiing 0f sth.. haiix... buut ii n0e iit's iimp0ssiible de... haiix....

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2005-12-07T14:59:00.000+08:00

`gettiing w0rst`

wth... keep 0n c0uughiing n0n-st0p... haiix... buuaii ta han... c0uugh tiill chest damn paiin... haiix... hw cuum lyk tt siia...? haiix... dyiing s00n le ba ii guuess... haiix... damn xiin kuu... duun wan get siick agaiin le... siick damn fuuck uup... m0ii liife even m0re fuuck uup... haiix...

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2005-12-07T09:09:00.000+08:00

`sliightly better`

ytd slp damn earlii... w0ke uup t0dae feeliing quuiite better le... buut stiill g0t c0uugh... when c0uugh... chest damn paiin siia... haiix... nw iin sk0l... lata tiing cn g0 wrk ba... haiix... b0 biian.. n0 m0ney le... haiix... m0ii f0ne biill came le... $60+... haiix... m0ii dad help m0ii pay... haiix... waste hiis m0ney agaiin... haiix... ii'm suuch a bad s0n... haiix... ii realii damn sii baii... haiix...

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2005-12-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

`siick cuum m00dy`

eva hab diis kiind 0f feeliing? euu siick n stiill euu feel sad, fan, m00dy? well... diis iis wad ii'm feeliing riite nw... haiix... m0ii liife iis suux... haiix... neber hab a chance... haiix...

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2005-12-06T13:19:00.000+08:00

`damn weak`

t0dae neber went sk0l... take mc... cant take iit... berii de weak... w0ke uup diis m0rniing... headache even w0rst... den wh0le bdy berii h0t... pill0w was wet... sweatiing all de heat c0me 0uut... den nw g0t c0uugh le... tiing bc0s de s0re thr0at make m0ii c0uugh de... haiix... m0ii damn weak siia... den went c d0c... d0c sae iis duue t0 c0ld tt y make m0ii s0 damn siick... den at dere... ii 0s0 g0t ask de d0c hw cuum m0ii eat s0 muuch den stiill s0 skiiny... den he sae... at least m0ii g0t gr0w ht... iif neber gr0w ht den stiill s0 skiinny den m0ii suurely g0t pr0blem le... d0c 0s0 sae tt... 30 or 40 yr 0ld pluus 0s0 cn start t0 gr0w wt... tt mean ii nd t0 waiit tiill s0 0ld den gr0w wt? wtf... haiix... den ii 0s0 g0t ask abt diis iillness called yan shii zheng... duun0 hw t0 spell iin eng... haa... den ii ask hiim hw t0 cuure tt yan shii zheng de... den he sae... muus sl0wly cuure de... iif realli cant.. he suuggest g0 c xiin lii d0c... l0lx... c tiill $18... haiix... waste m0ii dad m0ney... den aft tt went back hm... t00k mediiciine... den g0 take rest.. wake uup... sweated 0s0... siianx... g0iing bec0me sweat man le... -.- den w0ke uup... fiind m0iiself berii de diizzy... tiing eat de mediiciine uuntiil diizzy ba... den aft tt g0 eat p0rridge... p0rridge f0r luunch... p0rridge f0r dinner t00... haa... yuum yuum.... den nw uusiing c0m... haa... wah... ii wriite s0 damn l0ng siia.. l0lx... kk... g0iing t0 st0p le... haa... nw feeliing muuch better le... duun0 m0ii fren feel better le ma? haiix... tiing later g0 slp le.. t0dae cant sm0ke[sad].. t0dae cant g0 dwn[sad]... t0dae cant wrk[duun0 hw ii feel]... t0dae cant g0 sk0l[happii]... wahaha... kk... st0p here le... l0lx...

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2005-12-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

`wth`

wah lan eh... nw bl0ck n0se... keep 0n driippiing... wth... den s0mem0re nw haviing c0ld sweat... wth... siianx... argh...

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2005-12-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

`siick`

haiix... getting w0rst le... diis aftnn n0t tt siick... buut when reach hm... feel m0re jiia lat... b0dy half c0ld half h0t... f0rehead felt h0t 0s0... s0re thr0at even w0rst... den nw... add iin 0ne m0re... headache... wth siia... damn swaii l0rs.. haiix... eyes lyk wanna cl0se lyk tt... cant even 0pen wiide... lyk aniitiime ii cn faiint lyk tt... haiix... hate de feeliing 0f gettiing siick... haiix... h0pefuully tml cn rec0ver... haiix...

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